Consider the phrase “falling down on the job”. I don’t know about you, but when I hear it, I think of someone intoxicated at their workplace, quite literally falling down (drunk) on the job. That literal image may speak to my own proclivities, although I can state unequivocally that I have never fallen down drunk on the job. Have I actually been drunk on the job? Um, well. Ahem. Let’s just say that on occasion in my work in higher education we held some after-hours events where a few drinks were the norm and I was a wee bit wobbly-pops on the way home. And that’s all I am going to say about that.
These days, however, I do feel a bit like I am falling down (not drunk) on the job. Most of the time, I think that being a food blogger is the best job in the world. I do what I love to do and I am fortunate to make a decent income from it. But there are times that I get very overwhelmed by it and by all the things I need to do or think I need to do. And by the fact that I have a tendency to say yes to too many projects. Right now is one of those times. I am trying to do it all, but I have the distinct sense that I am not doing any of it very well. I know I will get a handle on everything soon and in the meantime, the best approach is just to keep plugging away, one little bit at a time. Otherwise I would just want to climb into bed, pull the covers over my head, and not come out. Tempting, definitely, but not the best way to handle the overload!
This is by way of apology to all of my bloggy friends and all of my readers if I am not putting in quite as much effort as I normally would. I want to have the time to make the rounds, commenting on all the amazing blogs I love, as well as responding to each and every comment on my own blog or responding to all the emails and questions I get from readers. Quite frankly, that’s how I’d prefer to spend my whole day, with maybe a little baking, photography and writing thrown in there too. I love my online communities, they make me feel remarkably connected to a far larger network of friends and support than I could ever build face to face. Given my druthers, I’d fritter away most of my time on these communities, connecting and learning and growing. But you know the drill. That’s just not how it goes. Despite the fact that the majority of my work is done online, much of it is in frantic haste, trying to finish one assignment while keeping tabs on the next, and still posting actively enough to keep people engaged. And then there are the offline obligations, trying to manage my kids’ lives and spend time with my family. It’s a constant war against the clock, and I don’t know anyone who doesn’t feel the same, no matter what they do.
So. Not to feel all woe-is-me sorry for myself. Because I don’t. I know I can only get so much done in a day and something has to give. I do my best and I know that most of the world forgives me for not quite meeting its, or my own, expectations all the time. And when I do have a little tiny bit of time on my hands, I find myself in the kitchen, throwing some ingredients together to bring you a delicious treat. Like this low carb Chocolate Orange Swirl Bread. Orange isn’t necessarily my go-to flavour to combine with chocolate, but this recipe just works. The orange gives it a bright, refreshing note, while the chocolate makes it feel like a decadent treat. Eat it…and forgive me for falling down on the job!